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Found him. ✨
I sit in my favorite rocking chair on the porch, just around sunset. The chair opposite me is empty and I think of all the people who have inhabited that chair and this space over the years, as if it were the trauma and healing-drenched recliner in a therapist’s office.
The sun glints off the burnished copper, cardinals and red breasted robins dart around the yard in their civilized feeding ceremony, and my iced tequila has just begun to warm my cheeks and lips.
Golden green leaves dance overhead and I feel the springtime sex in the air as every living thing is pollenated and my vision mercifully blurs as I sneeze.
The coming evening is a blanketed caress over the chaos of the day and I feel stress and nostalgia effervesce out of every pore in my bare skin.
And I let it go, let go of all of it. It mingles with the anticipation in the air of a coming ... something, and I take another draw of my pipe. Sweet tobacco smoke clouds lift and fade away and I marvel at anything which can endure all this aggressive fragility life drenches us with.
The night is young and I feel old. I turn back to my book and sink into this chair, my chair, with a clear view of my memory soaked porch and fleeting familiarity in the dusky light. And I continue to endure, for now.
Ive been so inward focused that I nearly missed the miracle right in front of me. Ive been seeing things a lot more clearly lately and, while life is a mess and the world is chaos, I’m living each day in this miracle, learning to love and exist in “enough.” It’s been a strange and beautiful exploration.
Sacred, silent sunrise and breakfast on the edge. Happy Easter, friends.
I have some incredible memories from this place. Devastated to see centuries of history, devotion, and culture gone in a few hours. .
This photo is from 2012 when I spent a few days in Paris on my way home from a project in India. It was a miracle in itself, for the rainbows only appeared for a few minutes before they faded away.